I've noticed I haven't really said all that much about anything lately. But still you come and read. Thanks for that, really, it means a lot.
So many Blogs share so much personal stuff, the most personal I seem to get is when I leave you wondering how the questions from the Mission relate to my life (and yes, the questions always come from things that have happened to me, things I've thought or struggles I've faced - usually over the weekend).
(It goes on and on, so be ready for a long read if you click below)
But I do want to get deeper, toss some more stuff into the mix. Looking over the entries, I wonder just where I am headed with all of this. Is there a point? Surely it doesn't help you get to know me any better.
If anything it is egotistical, narcissistic and vain. But then again, doesn't that sum me up pretty well? Maybe it is more accurate than I give it credit.
Lordy, I know I had a point here.
Oh yeah, tossing a personal nugget your way (ok, now that really sounds gross doesn't it?).
My ADD journey had seemingly come to a stopping point.
The shrink prescribed me quite a lot of Ritalin and to be honest, I never wanted to take that. Since it is a Schedule 2 drug (schedule 1 are illegal narcotics, btw) and possibly addictive, I was worried.
My ADD is bad, actually the worst the Doc had ever seen according to the test results.
And I KNOW it is bad, I struggle at work to focus all the time (we need no more proof other than this post).
But I have decided not to take the Ritalin. Didn't even get it filled.
Why? On once point, honestly, I was worried about it. I have a pretty nice-sized OCD side, and who knows how that would be influenced. On the other, I wanted to see what God wanted for me. True, I feel God gave Doctors their gifts of healing, and sick people need to go to doctors! But I also think He has plenty of power to heal as well, if we just ask.
The key of course is twofold. Sometimes He heals in His time, not ours. And sometimes, He chooses not to heal. The reasons for that are His alone, but sometimes we see why years later.
But I asked Him to heal me and to give my guidance. I can't say I felt Him speak to me, but the obsession to take the Ritalin was gone. I mean, I really wanted to take it at first. I wanted to try it because I was told I would see an immediate difference. It was all I could think about. Now, that is all gone.
And frankly, I like me how I am.
I know I can't concentrate very well, but I guess that's part of my charm. I can hold down a job and people keep hiring me in spite of my problems, so they must see something they like.
My family loves me as I am also, and if the meds changed me too much, that delicate balance within the family dynamic would be thrown totally off.
I am working too hard at healing some past problems to have some meds throw that all out of whack.
There is also the spiritual side. Getting closer to Christ means trusting in Him more and more. Going to Him with decisions to be made, and with problems needing to be solved. That's the journey I am on right now, so I am realizing I need to bring Him everything, even what I think is small stuff. (When you think about it, everything is small stuff to God, He can do anything, after all!).
So there we are.
A long-winded answer to a question no one asked! But also, a way to learn a bit more about me. Much like Ogres, I have many layers.
Just for fun!
I'm getting better at these, this is much smaller and should load faster!
Tomorrow and Wendesday I will be light on the Blogging due mostly to a 2-day class on Adobe PageMaker 6. Yes, I know, 7 just came out (in fact I have it here beside me, unopened waiting to be installed), but this class was only on 6. Since I don't know 6 or 7, it really doesn't matter to me.
And this is only level 1. There are a 2 & 3 down the road. And up next, will be PhotoShop level 2 and Illustrator level 1.
I am gonna be the mac Daddy of Adobe software soon! Anyway, 2 days away from work does kind of make the workload back up, but I'm sure it will be worth it.
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Monday Mission 2.8
1. What part of your body would you most like to change? Explain.
2. What are the Blogs you absolutely must visit each time you log on, no matter what?
3. What part of your (current or most recent) significant other's body would you most like to change?
4. At what age would you consider yourself as "old?"
5. I hear many stories about children who show potential in a certain area, only to have their spirits crushed by parents or teachers because they are told they aren't doing it right, or will never amount to anything. Was there a point in your life where you feel like you were discouraged in some manner that had an effect on your life?
6. Eek! I left home without my Visor today, I feel nearly naked! What item(s) make you feel naked when you walk off and forget them?
7. I believe we are all artistic in some form or fashion. Not just limited to drawing or painting, but carpentry, baking, music, gardening, collecting, you get the idea. What is it you do that best expresses your artistic side?
BONUS: Stop, hey... what's that sound?
